Thank you. Each of you.

What I’m thankful for:

With every morning that comes, I have reason to hate. To not want to be here. It’s a battle to get through the day but I have people who love me and reasons to hang on for a just a little longer.

I never tell them how grateful I am for them.

I am most grateful for a merciful God who I have not visited enough. Sure, I talk to Him every night before my eyes close, but I never took the time to pray or thank Him for the mercies he shows me every day. Lord, you are indeed a wonderful God.

I am grateful for people who left me alone when I was most down and didn’t interfere too much but I knew I could count on them when I needed to talk even if they didn’t reply back. Sometimes I’m grateful they didn’t. Valeska, Kaveri, Kriti, Abhishek, Priyanka and Siddharth, thank you.

I am grateful for the men that kept me awake ALL night talking, sometimes much to my annoyance. Thank you, I am grateful for your existence. For the amount you CAN talk and keep me distracted. Warren, Werner and Thomas; you’ll are blessings to your own. Disguised in devil cloak but I know your hearts. Thank you.

Natasha, you hold the record for my longest phone conversation EVER. If not for your sage advice, I wouldn’t feel better today. You are a gem and I’m glad I got to know you. I cant wait for the years and years of friendship ahead. J

For Jaclyn, writing to someone you didn’t know is a big deal. I’m glad you took the time to write, you have made a difference to my life. You truly have. (Thank you for the wonderful music.)

I am grateful for a mother than calls me just at the right time and make me laugh. She doesn’t know how much she has helped me. She is that tiny silver lighting at the edge of my very black cloud. I am grateful for her in every way, everyday.

I am grateful for a dog that lies next to me making sure her body touches me so even if I flinch she’s awake to lick my tears. Or think I want to play with her when I lie on the cold floor crying and hating my existence. THAT STUPID BALL that she loves and keeps nudging into my lap, excited to catch it even if it is just a distance of 15 feet. She is my smile today. She is my happiness.

I can never thank each of you well enough, but I want you to know, for today, just today I keep going because of your strength, your belief in me and most importantly your care. I love all of you.

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16 thoughts on “Thank you. Each of you.

  1. What a beautiful and loving heart you have! I’m so happy that you found gratitude for today 🙂 Thank you for sharing it with us.

    You’re very welcome for the music. I’m glad the lyrics touched you like they touched me.

    Have a wonderful day!!! 🙂

  2. Hey there, I have been following your blog for a very long time….Would wait for you to write…but, then you were busy with work, people around you and so your posts were sporadic…

    Now when I go to my dash board and see your posts one after the other…it is such a delight coz you write amazingly well….

    I know you are going through a lot of pain, but, I am sure writing is therapeutic and what more so much to read from you 🙂

    And things will be good soon, but, pls continue to write 🙂

    • Thank you Sophia. Yes, i hadnt realized until right now how much i love writing. Even if it isnt in the ranks of authors and the like. Thank you for being there, even if just a silent spectator. The mail you sent me set my spirits high. 🙂 ❤

  3. Ummm excuse me but that was definitely not the longest conversation record material.Welcome to the world of marathon ramblers. Your strength comes from within you,M. We merely reminded you to delve a bit deeper. You are a wonderful, warm person and evil beyond belief.Loads of love To you and Nemo

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