What I’m thankful for:
With every morning that comes, I have reason to hate. To not want to be here. It’s a battle to get through the day but I have people who love me and reasons to hang on for a just a little longer.
I never tell them how grateful I am for them.
I am most grateful for a merciful God who I have not visited enough. Sure, I talk to Him every night before my eyes close, but I never took the time to pray or thank Him for the mercies he shows me every day. Lord, you are indeed a wonderful God.
I am grateful for people who left me alone when I was most down and didn’t interfere too much but I knew I could count on them when I needed to talk even if they didn’t reply back. Sometimes I’m grateful they didn’t. Valeska, Kaveri, Kriti, Abhishek, Priyanka and Siddharth, thank you.
I am grateful for the men that kept me awake ALL night talking, sometimes much to my annoyance. Thank you, I am grateful for your existence. For the amount you CAN talk and keep me distracted. Warren, Werner and Thomas; you’ll are blessings to your own. Disguised in devil cloak but I know your hearts. Thank you.
Natasha, you hold the record for my longest phone conversation EVER. If not for your sage advice, I wouldn’t feel better today. You are a gem and I’m glad I got to know you. I cant wait for the years and years of friendship ahead. J
For Jaclyn, writing to someone you didn’t know is a big deal. I’m glad you took the time to write, you have made a difference to my life. You truly have. (Thank you for the wonderful music.)
I am grateful for a mother than calls me just at the right time and make me laugh. She doesn’t know how much she has helped me. She is that tiny silver lighting at the edge of my very black cloud. I am grateful for her in every way, everyday.
I am grateful for a dog that lies next to me making sure her body touches me so even if I flinch she’s awake to lick my tears. Or think I want to play with her when I lie on the cold floor crying and hating my existence. THAT STUPID BALL that she loves and keeps nudging into my lap, excited to catch it even if it is just a distance of 15 feet. She is my smile today. She is my happiness.
I can never thank each of you well enough, but I want you to know, for today, just today I keep going because of your strength, your belief in me and most importantly your care. I love all of you.